I may be totally kidding myself, but I feel like I used to sleep – A LOT! Before August came around, I remember sleeping through the night, falling asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow, and sleeping until at least 10am. If someone wanted to do brunch with me on the weekends, I couldn’t make it anywhere until 11am at least.
I’m not sure what screwed me over more, breastfeeding at all hours of the morning, or the constant random wakings when we first brought August home from the hospital. All I know is I feel like I still wake up at 12am, 3am, and 6am every morning. Coincidentally, those are the same hours that August used to wake up. The sucky thing is that he REALLY hasn’t been doing that for at least a year and a half now, so what’s my excuse?
I think part of the problem is that I’ve always been a light sleeper, and things have only gotten worse. As Brent likes to tell me, “You wake up when he rolls over.” I swear to God it’s true. Here’s a list of other things keeping me awake:
- I never know when he’s going to wake up in the morning, so I’ve trained my body (not on purpose) to beat him to the punch. That means I wake up around 5:30am every morning just in case he wakes up at 6am (a typical morning is 6:30 or 7am).
- I never know if he’s going to wake up in the middle of the night. (see #1 for the rest)
- I never know if he’s going to wake up before I fall asleep. He tends to wake up around 11pm if he’s going to at all, so sometimes I’ll just wait it out before falling asleep in my bed.
- I don’t know what noises will and won’t wake him up in the middle of the night. Once a fire alarm went off and he didn’t wake up, but we walk by his room and step on a squeaky part of the floor and he’s up. Go figure that one out. (Sleep cycles, gotta love them!)
And there you have it, folks. All the reasons why I’m not sleeping. I’ll be honest it’s all getting pretty old. I just want to sleep one night, all the way through until at least 8am, is that so wrong? Is it even possible anymore? Anyone know a good hypnotist?
Until then I’ll have to stick with my earplugs. But then I’m up thinking about whether earplugs will ruin my hearing long-term? Great. Am I the only mom out there not sleeping ever? How many hours do you get? I think I’m at maybe five hours a night.